I am a Certified Life Coach and Author who writes about life as seen through the eyes of a recovering compulsive gambler.
I used gambling as an escape from my pain and troubles. I experienced the rush and despair that gambling brings. When I was playing video poker I felt like I could finally do something I was good at. It brought me a sense of pride and became a comfortable space for me to exist.
Until it turned on me. The frenzy of the chase took over. Even when I won I hardly ever walked away with money. I couldn’t think about much other than when I was going to play next.
I began to beat myself up for my losses, for my wins, for going to play and for being such a loser. Any excuse to belittle myself was good enough for me. I would often wonder what was wrong with me.
Eventually I got tired of being so sick and tired. I knew I had a problem. I wasn’t sleeping, eating or taking care of myself or my relationships. I was blowing through cash like it was nothing.
I knew I needed help.
I read books, went to Gamblers Anonymous (GA), saw a counselor, attended an outpatient program and tried a variety of other things.
There was no easy answer for me. It took me years to get into this mess and I wasn’t getting out of it over night.
I wish I could tell you that there was a defining moment for me to snap out of my fantasy land.
But I can’t. I “quit” numerous times. I became stronger each time I did. I learned a lot along the way. Chances are good I understand what you’re going through.
Nobody understands a gambler like a fellow gambler.
This blog and the book “Numb No More” share my journey with you, past and present. I believe it is now my life purpose to help gamblers live better lives.
I continue to learn and practice my growth. I am choosing to Live my Life with Feeling.
My Commitment to You:
- I am here to support you without guilt, judgment or shame.
- I am here through success and “failure.”
- I honor where you are in life. I know you are the one who gets to make your own choices.
- I am providing you a safe place to land.
- I am open to you and available for you.