Nothing In Particular

Aug 28, 2012 by

I want to say something. Trouble is, I don’t know what.

Do you ever experience that?

I started thinking about it this morning. I’ve been thinking about it as I go on with my day. I finally just realized that it’s not as much about saying something. It’s more about being present with you.

As one of my readers I consider you part of my little world. I imagine that we have similarities whether it’s through our common understanding of gambling addiction or if you’re one of my friends.

My gambling addiction made me want to escape the world. I wasn’t happy with who I was or where I was at. I was ashamed of my situation and I didn’t want to face the reality of friends. It was easier to escape!

Now I actually enjoy being around people. I still need some alone time, but I really love the friendships I have created and the life that I have grown into.

I want to be sure you know that I appreciate you for being part of it. You encourage me and keep me going. My hope is that I can return the favor. As you read this you may be struggling its something in your life.

You are not alone. I believe that you can move mountains when you are ready. I have faith in you.

How can I be so sure? We walk in each others shoes. Our common threads bring us strength and connection.

Thank you for being you!

Blessings and Care my Friends,

Kim

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  1. Bonny Jackson

    Hi Kim!! :) Sorry it’s taken me so long to comment, when I’ve actually been thinking about your blog that day ever since! Yes, definitely know what it’s like to want to say something, but not know what. Want to feel something, but not know what. Want to make the best decision and care about myself & those around me…sometimes it works, and sometimes it just feels like I take 2 steps forward & 3 steps back!

    It’s good to know you’re there, too, Kim. I enjoy when I receive your blog in my e-mail. Like a friend.

    I’m around people the whole time I’m at work, so I enjoyed going to the casino to relax, de-stress, (yeah, right, losing all my hard earned money is relaxing!! Not!) and be ALONE!! But, in the small town that I live in, everyone knows me & I don’t get much alone time. Yes, I still go, but not near as much & it just doesn’t have the same pull for me. I hope that’s progress…I’m also serious about quitting smoking, this time, and the two go together to me, so I cheat. Gotta stop it & get healthy, that’s my goal every day when I wake up. Sometimes it works, sometimes not so much.

    Thank-you for letting me get that out, & for being there, Kim! :) Let’s take good care of ourselves!!

    • Hi Bonny!

      I’m so glad to hear from you! I love having virtual friends :-)

      It sounds to me like you’re on a good track! Isn’t taking a few steps forward better than none at all? Being aware of where you are and where you want to be is really important. You know that you want to be alone for a while and you’re figuring out ways to get it. You know that smoking and gambling go hand in hand and you’re looking at that too. Bravo!

      When you’re ready to quit and change your path you’re making it happen. I don’t believe in perfection (too many excuses are bad, but it sounds like you’re good to go on that). If you have the vision of life without gambling or smoking you’re set!

      And you’re welcome Bonny! We have got this!

      Take Care!

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