Patience is NOT one of my virtues…yet
I had to get up at 3:30 this morning. I only got about 4 hours of sleep. I need to fly standby to Los Angeles and the flight was oversold. There are about 40 kids at the gate waiting area. I’m tired and I’m cranky. AND I have a sensitive boyfriend.
These are the makings of a perfect disaster.
After a fight with my boyfriend and telling 3 kids and a chaperon off I made it off the plane and I’m typing this from LA. I can’t help but wonder if patience can be learned. I like to think that it can…even if I need to get a muzzle for my mouth (my ex-boyfriends are nodding their heads at that). Then I wonder why I have to be the one to change. Yes, I know that I’m the only person in the situation I can control (hypothetically I have control over my mouth). The kids behind me were intentionally raising and dropping the tray during the flight and kicking the floor/chair. The kids in front of me literally said, “wow, that’s a really annoying noise” and I watched as 2 more kids started making the same noise. The chaperons said nothing (until I finally told the kids to knock it off…perhaps a better choice of words could have made their way out of my mouth).
Why am I wondering how to be more patient?
Maybe part of the problem is that we are living in a society where not enough people are speaking up. Should I have to sit and take it while rude people bug the crap out of me? Or should I be polite, patient and understanding? I know that I have plenty of my own annoying moments.
As I learn to deal with my emotions (instead of running away and numbing out) I am discovering that anger and impatience seem to be showing up the most. I’m pissed off that I should relax…but in the end I know I will feel better when I make it through all this anger and pain.
What say you? Do you sit back or speak up? Or do you fall somewhere in the middle?
Here’s to our life of feelings!